AIYAH!!!!!!!!!!! JO YUN HO MAH FAAAN!
*SIGH*…. I’m so bored, I need to go out. But I don’t know where to go, Maybe to your school.. hahaha just kidding, I don’t even know where it is. Give me some ideas.
By the way, thanks for the Testimonial. You are the first one to write it, and will be the last one too. It’s very funny, I like it when you said I need a girl to keep me awake while driving. hahaha… it like you’re advertising me on the net…Hopefully it will work, but i have my doubt. :p
Hmmm. you’re right!!!!, it’s your eyes that look like Kristy. No wonder it so seductive, hahaha well at least for me, I think. I bet there is a line up of guys in your school eh? you are so fortunate. 
I wish I can be Mr. Popular. hahaha…
Anyway…
The program for this Friday is Iron Chef right? coming?
So yeah, in recent news, T mysteriously stepped into my life.God, I like to be noticed, but by the right person. *sighs* He sounds like such a flirt…
I want someone who genuinely cares about me and sees me for the good things INSIDE….
It’s funny how we all want what we can’t have.
Today was my English ISU presentation…I dressed up as a Geisha…the white makeup, kimono, the lipstick..the works. I think I talked too much about Geisha and not about my books…Oh well.
..But maybe I’m finally growing up…I didn’t stutter like mad this time. You know how I get so nervous when I hafta talk in front of people. Never was good at public speaking. Always been insecure, but maybe we all are, but some hide it better than others. Maybe it comes from my upbringing..I was taught what was right from being punished for doing wrong.
I’m still feeling the song from yesterday. Better NOT overplay songs.
I wanna curl up and hibernate. Just for a moment I wish life would stand still…I need to recuperate.
Collide - Howie Day
The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You’re barely waking
And I’m tangled up in you
Yeah
I’m open, you’re closed
Where I follow, you’ll go
I worry I won’t see your face
light up again
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find, you and I collide
I’m quiet, you know
You make a first impression
I’ve found I’m scared to know
I’m always on your mind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find, you and I collide
Don’t stop here
I’ve lost my place
I’m close behind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find, you and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
what’s wrong with this world? why would anyone want to harm an innocent girl like Cecilia Zhang? Some things I guess we’ll never understand.
mom: “just leave..”
me: “maybe i will….there’s nothing keeping me here anyways.”
so yeah, life’s like this. Now it’s even more clear that my parents don’t really want me here, and they want just as much for me to leave for uni.
GOD. It hurts. I don’t know how to act around guys anymore…i’m so afraid of how i present myself…of whether i’m giving the wrong impression or whatever. It’s so bad. I can’t talk to guys normally anymore. I don’t know if they want to be friends or more than that.
…guys :@
