princess paupr’s Reflections

Moving On

I think I’m going to be okay
I think I’m going to be alright
And soon I’ll go through each day
Without re-living the pain
And soon I’ll go through each day
Without remembering your words

I wish things could’ve turned out differently
I wish things didn’t end this way
..That you understood how much you meant to me
I wanted to be your friend
But you wanted something more

I hope that one day you’ll understand
I hope that one day we’ll be friends again
Because I trusted you as much as you trusted me
Maybe I couldn’t see you for all that you are
Maybe you couldn’t see me for all that I am

I’m moving on now
And I hope you are too
One day you’ll see
It wasn’t meant to be

But we can still be friends. If you want to.

1 Corinthians 13

Love

1If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. To love is to trust? To love is to hope? According to Melissa, I should forgive, but I don’t have to necessarily trust someone. I don’t want to trust him.

But God commands us to love one another…and if to love is to trust, then Jacqueline must also trust??

So confused..

I don’t understand this: To the rest I say this (I, not the Lord): If any brother has a wife who is not a believer and she is willing to live with him, he must not divorce her. And if a woman has a husband who is not a believer and he is willing to live with her, she must not divorce him. For the unbelieving husband has been sanctified through his wife, and the unbelieving wife has been sanctified through her believing husband. Otherwise your children would be unclean, but as it is, they are holy. (1 Cor 7: 12-14)

How can a husband be sanctified through his wife or a wife sanctified through his husband? It doesn’t make sense. You’re not supposed to marry a unbeliever right? …

oh how i hate calculus…

I know what I need to do, but I can’t seem to force myself to do it. If I keep this up, the uni i choose will prolly take back my acceptance.

Why am I so dumb at math? Numbers… Ladies and gentlemen, I am numbophobic.

I think I jinx myself out…”You’re so stupid, you’re so stupid…why don’t you understand how to do this? You’re going to fail, you’re going to fail”.

fear of failing.