“Ohana” means “family.” “Family” means “no one gets left behind.” But if you want to leave, you can. I’ll remember you though. — Lilo, from Lilo and Stitch
I have been holding in some frustrations for a while now, hoping that somehow the things that are bothering me will stop/resolve itself. I have been really been “edge-y”/tense and just bitter.
And I didn’t really know why until yesterday.
I got really upset yesterday. Things were said that really set me off…stuff about my church…the church I grew up in and which I consider my family.
It really hurts me when I hear people criticize Jaffray. It upsets me to hear people put down Aletheia, worship team, church leadership, the way things are run… I’m not saying that we should pretend that everything is perfect and we should be complacent or settle with the “status quo”. No, what really hurts is when I hear people -members of the church- bash the church and speak as if they are outsiders looking in…ie: without speaking with love and consideration towards the body of Christ – the people. It’s so easy to remove yourself from the body of Christ, and start looking at it from the outside to dig out everything that’s “wrong”. (Imagine looking at a snowglobe) But what is difficult is putting yourself in other people’s shoes – ie: the leaders.
I’m also really frustrated with certain people who have tons to criticize about with regards to how things are run, but don’t try to do anything to help. It’s people who don’t actually care enough to do something about the situation.
The body is a unit, though it is made up of many parts; and though all its parts are many, they form one body. So it is with Christ. (1 Cor 12: 12). When one part suffers, the whole body suffers. One person.
As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received. Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace. There is one body and one Spirit—just as you were called to one hope when you were called— one Lord, one faith, one baptism; one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all. (Eph 4:1-6)
Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others. (Phil 2:2-4)
Maybe it’s because I care. Maybe because I feel like all that I’m doing is in vain, that it doesn’t matter because things change, people move on. Maybe it’s not worth remembering.
It hurts.