Because I feel like it.
Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
And roped me in
So, mesmerizing, so hypnotizing,
I am captivated, I am
Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I’m right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed, but I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me
So isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that I am
So turn
up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I’ll be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
Like hope
dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption…
Preserve me, O God, for in you I take refuge.
I say to the Lord, “You are my Lord;
I have no good apart from you.” ~ Psalms 16:1
All I know
Is everything is not as it’s sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I’m not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
I wish I hadn’t seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I’m all I’ll ever be
But all I can do is try
Try
All of the moments that already passed
We’ll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be
And that’s wonderful, and that’s life
And that’s you, baby
This is me, baby
And we are, we are, we are, we are
Free
In our love
We are free in our love
The last couple of months have been of a whirlwind of work, friends, family, softball, music history, church stuff…
It’s funny because at the beginning of the summer I was so gung ho about doing a lot for God and being active etc. I guess my need for activity stemmed from a fairly boring term of mostly focusing on school and not much…”life”.
But now the balance is skewed the other way. I’m tired of running around and I just want to be alone. I want time to be by myself and sleep and sing along to my favourite pop tune=P As much as I consider myself a “people” person…i get drained when I’m around ppl a lot. I think that’s why I AM partially introverted.
Yeah, so I think “balance” is something that we talk about a lot, but is so hard to actually acheive.
At work I hear the words “work-life balance” quite frequently. Because most of my coworkers are married and have children, it is even more important to maintain that balance. I’m beginning to see more of the challenges faced when trying to have a family and career at the same time. Issues like who will take care of the children, what daycare to put the kids in…it’s not very fun sometimes, being an adult.
At school I try to maintain a “school-life balance”. Without a conscious effort, I think my natural tendency is to be a nerd. It takes a real effort to bring me away from my books. But so far, I have found that I am the most sane, happy, productive when I find the right balance of school and play. And most of all, when my spiritual life is on track, the other things also fall in place. (Last summer was so good…)
It’s been really hard to “keep things together”. I think instead of relying on God and making him the center (where life itself revovles around), I’ve been plugging God in whenever it’s convenient. I think at this current pace I’ll be even more burnt out than when I started.
*sigh*
Just take it easy, Jacq.
