So I thought today would be a super lonely day because for the second weekend in a row, my housemates both went home. But things took a turn when Miss Pink messaged me and asked if she could drop by with some “guests”. I was a little puzzled, but I didn’t think much of it. Anyways, its turns up, Melbee, Lyris and Hoimin drove down to visit the ‘loo-ers:) I got to chill a bit and take a break from the books. And I got some grocery shopping done too! After that we went to Ben Tanh’s…took over an hour to get seated but s’all good. Highlight of the night: “armpit sauce” (our table collectively agreed that the fish sauce smells like armpit).
Thanks especially to Mowe for the early Christmas gift of oatmeal raisin coooookies!! What a treat!
Sometimes I wonder if I was destined for mediocrity.
This year, daylight savings came about a month later than previous years (I think).
Except I feel even more tired than before the switch. Why am I always so tired?!
On Sunday, I took a break. I barely did any (school) work. I played on worship team, went to the young adults luncheon, cleaned the floors in my house, tidied my room. I watched “Lady in the Water” with Gordon (it’s a terrible movie, btw. i don’t recommend it at all, unless you want something to put you to sleep and or you want to cry about how you wasted 2 hours you’ll never get back.) I read the bible and talked to Gordon, made dinner and slept early for once.
It’s funny how I only equate school work as “work”. Other things - spending time with people, going to DG, reading the bible/QT…these things are important too. I’ve been reminded of that lately and it’s helped me de-stress (I tend to get antsy when I’m not productive in terms of school work).
In DG today we talked about evangelism (not a rare topic at C4C :P)…The last point made about true success in witnessing went like this..
“Taking the initiative in the power of the Holy Spirit and leaving the results up to God.”
I think the same thing can be applied to how I approach school.. I know that I needn’t stress out about the results, but that I should just do my best (in the power of the Holy Spirit).
*nods* Still on the road to beautiful…
by Monday Morning
I blogged part of this song once. Here are the full lyrics..
All my hopes and dreams inside
visions lurk behind my eyes
something new behind it grows
and You smile as my heart knows
to be another still with You
I’m the one that loved You through
but I’m still nothing next to You
I’m still nothing next to You
what I’ve seen and where I’ve been
what’s breaking out and breaking in
who I love and I despise
melting into compromise
how I’ve changed and how I’ve learned
becoming less becoming more
and I’m still nothing next to You
I’m still nothing without You
the sickness my mind’s battled long
the center of my every song
the beauty of my voice it fades
into a spiritual cascade
flowing form Your perfect smile
I’ve avoided all the while
but I’m still nothing next to You
I’m still nothing next to You
all the future seems unclear
never moving never near
but You hold me as I scream
wake me from my wicked dream
something out there waits for me
hand in hand we wait for it
but I’m still nothing next to You
I’m still nothing without to You
and the wonder of it all is I’m still standing
and the wonder of it all is we’re still standing
never planned it
and I wonder where I’ll be next year
will You stand right next to me?
will You hold me faithfully?
should I question all these things
what makes me so deserving?
of something that I’ve thrown away
coming back for me today
when I’m still nothing next to You
I’m still nothing next to You
hearts are broken just to mend
when will my brokenness end
lending my mind to dreams it seems
some things are never meant to be
but faith it lingers as I die
inside surrendering I cry
I’m still nothing next to You
I’m still nothing without You
time is a broken dream
time is and endless change
time is and offering
time has and endless sting
time has a world to bring
time, it’s a broken dream
mended while lovers sing
“Don’t cry because it’s over. Smile because it happened.” ~Dr. Seuss
