‘Now, comrades, what is the nature of this life of ours? Let us face it: our lives are miserable, labourious, and short. We are born, we are given just so much food as will keep the breath in our bodies, and those of us who are capable of it are forced to work to the last atom of our strength; and the very instant that our usefulness has come to an end we are slaughtered with hideous cruelty. No animal in England knows the meaning of happiness or leisure after he is a year old. No animal in England is free. The life of an animal is misery and slavery: that is the plain truth.’
~The Animal Farm
As I read this quote, I thought “wow, that sounds like my life”. Even though it really isn’t…and shouldn’t be. (Thank God, I wasn’t slaughtered before turning 1, and I get more than enough food) The life of a regenerated person should not be thought of as miserable or slavery (at least not slavery in its negative implications). But lately it’s been an uphill battle against feelings of tiredness, boredom, lack of motivation…I feel absolutely drained from the day in and day out working life. Being used to change (which is usually something I hate) every 4 months, my I find myself always being…tired.
What is my solution? I wake up and I don’t want to get up. I look upon my tasks with dread (besides actual work - Work term report, studying physiology, grad school apps) Why am I like this? Is it the seasonal depression kicking in? “I don’t wanna work, I just wanna bang on my drums all day”.
I lie down and sleep;
I wake again, because the LORD sustains me. (Ps 3:5)
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