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And this isn’t the way things should be.
You would think that by the 4th year I have school down pat…I should know what I’m doing, especially in terms of choosing courses. But course selection for this term has probably been the most difficult yet… Prior to this term, I never had to choose more than 1 or 2 electives. However, this time I had to choose all 5 of my courses. Some people would probably be more than happy to be able to choose whatever courses they want to take…but I’m just frustrated with it all. Last term when I chose my courses for this term, I thought I needed Biology 373 (Human Physiology part II) as a pre-requisite for OT. But now I know it’s only a “suggested” course to prepare for the program. So I decided to drop it. (First of all, I don’t know if I’m gonna get in and, second…I’m terribly afraid of taking pure science courses because of my experience in the past.)
Anyways, to replace Biol 373, I thought I might take something easier..something I like… However, because I decided so late to drop Biol 373, all the COOL electives are full now. I’m stuck with the less, cool/boring ones that fall on times that don’t fit my schedule well. I really really really wanted to get into Music 246 (Soundtracks in Movies and Film), but it’s all full the prof doesn’t allow overrides. The other options I’d like to take: Engl 306 (Intro to Linguistics) – FULL, Socwk 120R (Intro to Social Work) – FULL…GAHHHH I don’t know what to do. I’m currently enrolled in WS 306, but it’s on Thursday nights during Charge (Campus for Christ’s large group meetings). I’m so frustrated.
Think about all those angry last-minute shoppers and people fighting for parking spaces.
Here’s another anecdote.
Yesterday, Gordon and I went to small group (”Lily and James’” small group). L & J live in an apartment downtown where the security requires a few pieces of info before letting cars into the parking lots: building you’re visiting, suite # or person you are visiting, your name and your license plate number. For some reason, the security guy was having a lot of trouble hearing Gordon, and so we waited a while (I guess he was preoccupied with other things). Anyways, there were three cars behind us waiting and we were getting a bit impatient. After pressing the operator button 3 times he finally responded and got down the information. Except he forgot to ask the license plate number before the gate opened for us. So we were busy shouting the license plate number while the people behind us could only see that the gate was open and we weren’t moving ahead. They kept honking at us, and so the security guy couldn’t hear us. We had to shout the license plate like 3 times.
It made me so angry. I wanted to shout obscenities or give a rude sign back. People suck sometimes.
So lately I’ve been feeling more and more out of place at Jaffray. Maybe it’s because I’ve been away in Waterloo for so long now. I feel disconnected and like I don’t really belong sometimes. And then I miss the people I grew up with, the way things used to be. I’m like the oldest female at fellowship on any given day…I don’t feel like I have older ppl to really connect with and I’m so used to having that. I guess I have to be the big sister now.
I don’t deal well with change. I think I’ve said that before. I like stability and knowing the people I care about and who care about me will be there in the future. There are few people my age around and I feel like there will be less in the future. It bothers me cuz I don’t really know how to connect with people at Jaffray who are younger than me. I don’t know…It sucks growing up sometimes.
